haha...a enjoyable trip~~~

haiz,long time never upload my blog ad...it is the most happy on Christmas day... n also he first we never celebrate Christmas at Melaka...hahahaha...cause we(all the person who work at MITC )can join together for a trip...very happy...all small kid...nonono...is teenagers la...haha^^...so got topic to talk...but i most hate is they all always explain about my teeth...haiz...my teeth where got so serius wor...they all keep say when i smile...can see 10 tooth...got like that serius meh?brenda...got like that serius meh?haiz,nvm la...i dun care liao la...coz always keep they all say my teeth...no more feeling liao loh...^^talk another topic bah...very 遗憾 de thing is...we never bring the camera to the water park...so cannot let u all see the photo...haha^^...at there,got many things to play...fun!!!the most horrible is"superman"...dunno how to explain at here...if wan know...come n ask me bah...brenda u wan know also can come to ask me...wat is superman...hahahaha...now give u all see some photo bah...haiyo...next time juz let u all see la...now dunno wat wrong de...maybe no line bah...haiyo wait for a long time still cannot upload wan...next time bah...^^

love...is juz like a story

love...is juz like a story...this world still got a kind,handsome,friendly,good boys???maybe the world got...maybe one or two bah...but i'm not like that lucky...can't meet this kind of boys...so,when i saw a new relationship...i feel very happy with them...dunno y...the first time,i keep tell myself he is a good boys...n a nice boys...but she keep thinking got a day,he will bresk up with her wan...but i dun believe it...i juz feel they all very sweet~,very prosperity~ at the end,he still do this!!!this all,make me dun believe all the boys...i dunno wat r their "real face"...boys very horrible!!!the second,i keep worry about they all..but they all look lik really very prosperity...n the boys treat the girl very good...very take care of her...when i juz "FANG XIN"...the boys do that things...same with the first boys(it look like we doing"recycable"always recycle the same things...my friends really very pity wan,dun bully hr anymore...he juz a little girl...pls stop bully her...T.T...start from now,i won't simply believe boys anymore...y all the boys like that wan...this world dun have any good boys liao???y wan to find a good boys also like that difficult???although all the boys like that...i still will love my fruit wan...that night,she call me...she told me dun simply give up...she says i must love fruit until the end...coz she dun wan to see me like her...when i heard this,i feel sad with the boys...haiz!!!i will promise u wan...i dun care watever happen...i still will love fruit until the end(he says he hat e me n dun wanna see me anymore)...i promise u...^^

boring holidayssssssss

haiz...hate holidays wan...nth to do...very boring...i also finish watch my DVD ad...(very long time liao,that's y now can online ad...^^)if can choose i dun wanna to holiday anymore...like that,i won't unhappy,i won't everyday cannot see fruit,my life won't go like that quiet...like that boring...haiz...hope anything will turn back to before bah...but i hope teachers won't give us too much homework la...too much homework...i will very pressure wan...^^...haiz,i still can talk with fruit ma?who can tell me the answer?i ad very tired...i dun wanna guess anymore...fruit,can u dun treat me like that horrible...tell me the answer...pls...T.T...i can't accept ad...i really very tire!!!T.T...i dun care wat ur answer...but at lease u got tell me the answer n i no need to so worry about this thing ma...dun let me think so much liao...i juz wan to hear the answer...pls!!!do u know...durin gthis holidays...i always think about you,think about u whether u got eat or not...think about u got sleep better or not...think about today u happy or not...think about today u sad?think about y u so happy...thik about y u so sad...i do everything also think about u...i know u never ever think about me...i know u dunno wat my feeling now...i know u dunno i'm thinking about u now...i know everything!!!but i juz hope u know...when u sad...i juz beside u...i will support u;when u happy,u can share ur happy to me...when u need friends...u can find me...i'm ur friend who won't leave u alone when u r in hardship...because i juz beside u^^

happy sunday~

last sunday,my sis,mybro n some friends go drink tea...i ask them to go a cafe...it is opposite katholik...when we reached there,i saw 2G n 2H's student...i saw someone smoking...i very scare...then i ask them to change another place...after that,we change to "wings"...on the way,we can't find it...=='''...then my sis call my older sis...after we reached there...we then write on a paper that we wanna listen...then,we order drink...my sis got order french fried...a few minutes,the french fried come ad...but the waiter never be careful...n the french fried "fry"to my sis there...my sis very angry...wah,this is first time i saw it...at the same day,at the same time,had happen many things...they all 打破 glass...==...haiz...that day,we drink until 12 o'clock something like that...then we went home liao...although many things happen bt i still feel very happy...^^coz we keep talking funny things...hehe

...........

haiz...now i juz think that study not bad wan...the most bad is nth to do...but humans,when many things to do,they will say:"aiyo,y so many wan?"...if nth to do,they will say:"haiz...boring,nth to do..."ya...i'm this kind of human...^^always think too much...me 竟然think wan to see sun rise n sun set together with him...so naive...i say like this is because i know this thing won't happen...when it is happen...i juz tell u all bah...^^actually i wanna put fruit's new photo at here de...but i scare...coz i know many people know my address ad...so later i will change my URL...to makesure that no one know my URL...only brenda n kam can know...^^coz if they know...they won't........maybe i will tell 2 more person bah...^^haiz...if can...i will put his photo here...(when i'm together with him)...sweet(think too much liao,haiz dun wan to think so much liao la...juz finish do my things that's enough...coz if i think so much also not use la...coz i 明明know fruit won't love me wan...but i still think so much...think so much also not use la...sigh

i dun wan fruit become like that...fruit,pls stop do it!!!T.T

juz now when i wan to send hug for my friends...i got send for my fruit...something very amazing had been happen...my fruit...my fruit...he upload his photo ad...i very happy...coz long time never saw him ad...if i wanna see his face must go others' profile...at there,he never wear shirt...hehe...shy to view it...:$...don't dare to view it...can saw long time never saw him ad...when i saw his face...i noticed that he become more thin,tired,憔悴...my heart is bleeding...y should he treat himself like that?fruit,dun do like that anymore...dun do something that will hurt urself...n remember to eat much food...i dun wanna to see u like that...fruit,sorry!!!i really dun wan u become like that...i wan u become urself...before that,u r very cool,handsome,not so thin,n look like very confident wan...before of u had gone...i wan de is before of u...but now wat can i do???i really dunno...i dunno wat u like...i dunno wat u hate...now,i juz notice...我根本不了解你...somebody help me?T.T(i'm very tire ad...if can,i juz wan to sleep...n dun wanna to wake up anymore...but i hope not now la...coz i now still got many thing to do...maybe later bah...wait until i finish my things...u juz bring me away bah...god,watever u wan...u wan my life...i also can give u...but i juz wan u to give my fruit always happy,always posperity..that's enough...i die also got value liao^^...

猜不透。。。

猜不透
你最近是好是坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁
猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的 是热的
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的 是热的
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已经不想追求
越是在乎的人越是猜不透。。。

friendship forever~~~

hope all of u can have a friendship like them...very cute leh...animals can have a good friends we also can have good friends...i still remember...last time my fruit n me also like that...maybe our surrounding people don't noticed that...but i really miss him...if the time can be turn back...i will choose...dun wan love him...like that...i won't like that sad...n i still his friends...we talk together...we joke together...^^maybe he won't like that hate me ma...now i really dunno how to face him...i don't dare...but nobody can help me...i need u all help...somebody help me?with him...i will always smile...coz can stad beside him...for me,very hard...coz i now can't stand beside him anymore...if u all are in relationship must 珍惜each others...when chance is pass,anything is too late.....
together with him...i won't feel sleepy...although he always do something very childish...but i feel very happy...i still remember last year...he come to my class n find me...he says my bro wan find me...i never think too much...then believe him...who know he juz joke...^^miss him sooooooo much...

i'm here to tell all of my friends...dun 忽略or 牺牲people who r in our surrounding...i can't be friends with him...all is my fault because of me...i can't talk to him anymore...because i had choose a wrong way...i choose to hide at a side...don't dare to face the truth...sometimes,i hate of myself...y i wan to choose this way?y dun me juz face the truth...brenda had say...this must blame y that time brenda n me still don't know each other...if i know brenda earlier...that must not be like that...y that time nobody ask me to face the truth...y?this all things won't be like that...now i still fruit's friends...i'm very regret...i still wan to be his friends...(fruit,dun leave me alone!!!)if u got lover must 珍惜...:'(dun wait until missing...juz regret...

my holidays.....

during my holidays...coz always did the same things...still like last time^^...during holidays,i was buy many DVD to watch...so i always sleep very late...the most late i sleep is 5.30a.m...but the next day...i need to wake up earlier...like 8 o'clock something...very tired...but i can't dun wan watch DVD wan...coz it is very interest to me...every night,i must watch until midnight...so my family always scold me...the most funny is...my sis ask me dun watch too late...she says if i watch over 2 o'clock...she will spoilt the disc...i very scare...but the next day...i was in a不知不觉中...watch over 2 o'clock...at the time,i know that...i can't do it...duing this holidays...i never ever sleep below than 1 o'clock...so always scold by them...nowadys...it become a habit,so the next day...they all sure will ask me...yesterday sleep on wat time?but i answer them very quiet...coz i scare my sis will spoilt my DVD...but at the end...my sis never do that...i'm very happy...

friendster......

juz now when i sign in my friendster...i saw that,all had been change n it is juz like facebook...haiz... y should they copy facebook wan?i also dunno,n i dun wan to know...from kid still now...the most i hate is:"copy cat"...really hate...y should we dun wan to be ourself?y should we wan to copy others people?y dun we believe ourself?can't imagine that if we dun believe ourself...then who will going to believe us?haiz,this few days mood not so good...but when i write inside here,i will become more happy...coz i 终于found my best friend...my 知己...hahaha^^

long time never online ad...also long time never update my blogs ad^^

today is a moody day...maybe without him bah...i really miss him sooooooooooooo much...dunno he 's now ok o not...my life cannot without him...without him juz like a cup of coffee...no sugar...when u drink it...it is bitter...coz it less something...less sugar...whenever u drink it's also bitter?wanna see him right now...but.......but....nth la^^...can study in a same school with him is ok ad...nothing that i can think & dream right now...i juz can focus to my future...next year is coming soon...n i gonna to do a PMR test very soon...haiz,maybe it is foreordain bah...i cannot have a relationship until i am 21 years old...maybe the god dun wan me to feel sad in my love story...coz it know i very believe that...one day,fruit will talk to me again,he got love me before...wish i will dream come true!!!!!!!!!!!^^

talk with my sis until midnight

last time,i juz come back from MITC...very tired n wanna sleep liao...that day i very late juz bath...after bath very 精神liao...very boring...so i talk with my 4th sis the whole midnight...i tell her...i feel it is unfair for me...cause i feel that all of my family very 疼my bro...except my father...my father 疼daughter wan...so he less scold me wan...that night we had talk many...we talk until 3.30 like that...the next day,she tell my 1st sis...but i never 怪her la...cause she juz wan to let everyone know my feeling ma...hahahaha^^

something i had keep my heart very long time...n now wanna told my fruit

u are very handsome,
when i saw your face in a clowded place,
and i don't know what to do,
cause i'll never be with you.
Yes,you caught my eye,
as i walked on by,
you could see from my face that i was,
and i don't think i will see you again,
but we shared a moment that will last till the end,
when i thought that i should be with you,
but it's time to face the truth,
i'll never be with you...




miss fruit very much,
wish that it's not a truth,
but at the end,
we must believe that,
cause it's a truth...

the last day...

the last day at MITC...i go to toilet with Qi Ying...suddenly,when we go out...we saw a gal run very fast...(Qi Ying's friend)...QY say:"hi,friend"...dunno y she quickly sleep on QY's shoulder n start crying...we very weird...but never ask her y she cry...but i had guess that y she cry...QY keep ask she dun cry...n her tears keep fall can't stop...maybe she is causes love juz cry de bah...i'm not sure...nvm it's not important...^^btw...the earlier morning,someone baking cake by using rice cooker...u all dun believe leh(only her rice cooker an bake cake)...n i got saw it...so i now know how to bake cake ad...i must study hard...to makesue that ,when i growth up i can to become a bakery...hahahaha...(dun smile...i must do it,u all waiting for me bah!!!...later i will open a bakery shop...if u all wan to buy cake or bread...must fing me oh^^)...actually,i really miss they all wan...毕竟we know each other for a week ad...sure got a little bit miss la...the last minute...i had take 2 numbers...one is Qi Ying another one is Lenny...but Xiao Hui dun have number...so cannot take from her...very worry...dunno we still can contact or not...but she got say...if wan to contact her can add her email address...i got her address...QY got say December like that,we(QY,my 4th sis n me) will go karaoke there to sing a song...hahaha...it's fun...but also got many sad things wor...first,at there dun have any handsome boy...so they all see pretty girl i juz can talk with my friend...pity...nvm la,i still got fruit ma...hahaha...second,we i wan go back ad,i say bye bye to Xiao Hui,Qi Ying n Lenny...but Lenny never heard it...sad...he never say bye bye to me...T.T...third,that felow(dillon) dun wan add my facebook...hate him so much...somemore say:"you come n add me la...i reject you..."wah,too much de loh...nvm la,it's not important wan...juz makesure that my fruit got add me...that's enough...^^

haha...many people there...

MITC there,i saw many people there wor...i saw samuel yap,rong pey,kok lin,kok hiean,kah fen,ming quan,hui ying,jia ying...n my primary school's friend...haha...so many people there...very clowded...although i am very tire la...still happy wan ma...the most funny thing is kok lin & kok hiean "迷路"...haha...cannot believe that...they all wan find me...then they lost their parents...lolz...

wah,we finish the exhibition ad...hooray~

yeah,we finish the mitc's exhibition ad...at the last day we very tired loh...eat also no mood wor...juz wanna sleep n dream my fruit...many days never saw fruit ad...really miss him de loh...many many things that make me very confuse...dunno wat to do now...continue dreaming that he will be together with me,he still love nc,he never love her anymore,or juz make like dunno???very annoy!!!fruit dun hurt me ad...anybody hurt me i dun have feeling...juz feel very sad...but u hurt me,i really cannot accept that hurt...really very hurt...my heart is now bleeding...y should u treat am like that...i got somewhere did wrong?if got,u can tell me throughly...no need to treat me like that...really very pity!!!T.T

haiz...nowadays become no time to dream about fruit anymore...

i can't dream fruit anymore liao loh...coz i always sleep on mignight like that...n i noticed that this few days when i sleep,i never dream wan...i can't see fruit anymore; can't think fruit anymore;i can't dream fruti anymore...maybe it is because i always sleep very late...n never rest...very tired;not comfortable bah...i really wan to see fruti somemore leh...now no mood ad...wanna see him...see him juz like charging battery...full of energy full of power n started to "fight with army"...miss his tall size;miss his thin skin;miss his big eye;miss his height nise;miss his small mouth;miss his back...watever wat he do...all very handsome wan^^miss him sooooooooo much

i really very scare...

this few days...i'm thinking that{now i very love you n miss you...later,i dunno i will love you or miss u somemore ma...i also dunno when i will stop to love you,think you,& miss you...if got one day,u tell me taht you love me...n at the time i never love you somemore liao...then how?}this question i got ask brenda & my 4th sis...they all say i won't stop love him wan wor...but now i really very scare...life is like that...is yours until the end also yours...if the first time not yours at the end also not yours...maybe me & fruit really no 缘份bah...^^juz can see & think about him inside my dream when i sleep...haiz...

MAD!!!

wah ,very mad wor...when i dreaming something,that memories started coming out from my brain...:@...really too much de loh...that time is my time...n he still playing games...i ask him to get out the games...who know he scol me somemore wor...then nvm loh,i let him play...n he told me he gonna help me to open my msn...then i very happy loh...suddenly emergency wor{wanna go toilet}...when i came back,he say he had help me to send"hihi"to my friend...i very 紧张...n quickly ask him he sent for who...he point for me... started very mad(somemore that guy me not so 熟...n i scold him...not too much...u know wat his respond...he scold me back wor...he says:"if not like that 熟 then y u add him...wah,now is he do wrong thing leh...i where got fault....i got fault meh?HATE!!!always like this wan we do something wrong scold us...he do something wrong never ever scold by someone...somemore we take place of him...he did wrong we must scold by soemeone...u all say...is that too much???

inside this holidays,i miss many thing....

inside this holidays,i had miss many things...i had miss my school {although i think it is a bad school & dun wanna to become this school student,but study inside there about 2years ad...now juz wan to leave...of course got a little bit 不舍^^};i had miss my teachers {although there's teachers treat us not so good,but they had been our subject teachers,n teached us many things that we dunno,n also many of the new things,make us become clever};i had miss my friends {although some of urs treat me not so good,but i still will miss u all wan,watever how u treat me...i still will miss u wan,so plzzzzzzzz dun bully me...^^};i had miss my fruit(my lover)... {although he always never come to school...but i know wat he doing at home,doing revision(clever&hardworking)so i won't angry with him la}...although he always 害me worry about him...(actually,sometimes got a little bit angry with him&dun wanna see him somemore...but when i never see him in a days...i had miss him so much...i really wanna see him right now!!!n many many more...^^

sorry.....

oh brenda,i'm very sorry...today we chat very happy wan...suddenly i stop liao...until very long time...coz my sis in law wanna use the pc...so i must stop for a while...after u offline,i juz can use again...n i also saw ur offline message...really very sorry...i love you^^(ah kam,dun become jeslous ar,coz brenda love me too...maybe she love me more than she love you bah...hahahaha...{juz kidding la,dun angry ar})...

annoy!!!

wah,very long time never see fruit ad...really very miss him loh...dunno he now at *******how liao leh?how his boss treat him leh?dunno he got thin or not...scareT.T...haiz,y should my life become like that...compare to brenda,i very unlucky loh...she love de people also love her...me?juz can 暗恋people somemore that guy won't love me wan...very pity...555,y should like this???god,can u tell me y u wan to treat me like that???from i born until now,i think i had never ever be lucky before...hate myself...maybe me 前世is a bad gal bah...nobody know...but no need to treat me like that bah,unlucky!!!

at MITC....

yesterday,i go to MITC for helping my sis...haha,there not like last time...dun have many handsome boy or pretty girl...last time got...now,less ad loh...but i'm very happy,coz my sis booth there got a handsome boy(wah)...haha^^...my cousin's friend...he is very handsome,his SPM result best wor...11As...haha,unbelieveable!!!his atitute very special...very cute...his sound very low...is a best people(gentle)...nth that can 形容(coz i dunno how to...)better than my fruit loh...but i won't love him de la...coz i know i have fruit ad...i cannot become greedy like that...^^although he is good,but i still love fruit wan...

thursday

thursday(19/11/09)...in the earlier morning,brenda use shan min phone to sms me...ask me to call shan min's phone...then i call loh...i knew that they all know ad...they all know brenda blogging their things on her blog there...ming hui very angry n the whole day never talk with brenda...only see ong got talk with brenda...hui ying never come...mei wah during "end school" juz come n apologised with brenda...brenda never say something...now dunno how liao...n also dunno y ming hui will know de?maybe see yong tell her wan bah...nvm la,very long time now become a habit like that...^^

555...xin hui

xin hui,u really wan go liao?y dun u tell us before one week?then,we can help u to celebrate ma n also can give us time to get really ma...i;m very regret that...y thursday i never go to school...now how liao...the last day i saw xin hui is monday(17/11/09)bah...the last day(20/11/09) cannot see her,now miss her wor...xin hui,y u wan to leave us...u never tell me...u never let me see ur "last face"...i dun wan u leave us leh...very sad...

moody day!!!

today when i'm very boring ,i call brenda...n she says somethings that i really feel very sad...last time fruit 's things had make me very sad n dun wanna live liao somemore another sad thing come liao...haiz!!!sienz liao loh...that things is:"next year,xin hui won't study at gbs liao...coz her mother wanna wor at singaopora...start from now very sienz liao loh...i really dun wanna she change school wan leh,she chnage liao not funny liao loh...nvm la...although u wanna change school liao u & chuang wei also our god sis 4ever...

very very very dangerous loh~~~

now, my sis look like know i got blog liao...very scare leh...i really cannot let her know leh...if she know,she must ask me who is fruit wan...if i dun wan tell her,she will force me until i say de...ope this thing won't happen la^^gos bless me bah!!!

now juz feel that,working is difficult than studying^^

wah,now juz know that,actually working is difficult than studying n studying is easier than working...so start from now,i really wanna...(oh ot wanna is gonna)study hard...for my life easier...wanna plan my life ad...life not target is not a life ma^^haha...muzt plan a little bit...i heard brenda says my god bro(her bf) now working very tired wor...dunno he is now fine or not...n dunno fruit tired or not?how his bos treat him leh?he now still love nc ma?he go tlove me before?wah,if i can talk with him again...i think i will talk with him from the morning until night bah...coz very long time never talk with him liao...sad!!!ya loh,brenda says de is true...if that time i know her(brenda)...maybe now i still fruit's friend,i still can talk with him,we will be happy always like that time...juz think about that also very happy,wanna smile liao wor...^^

haha...ponteng again^^

hahaha...this year i had ponteng many days ad...dunno y,i dun wanna ponteng wan,coz this is not good...but dunno y i really dun wanna go to school leh...maybe my fruit never go liao bah...n i also think that "go school for wat"?fruit never go to school juz like a brillant life become a life that r not beautiful,no flower,no target,dun have many things...o mood!!!n i go to school also alone wan...u all know la...:"my friend got bf liao...all friends like that de ma,got bf/gf...after that can dun borther their friends de loh...very horrible n also terrible loh...nvm la,this wan i dun care...always like that now become a habit ad ma...^^i juz care about my fruit...hehe

think too much....

ya...is me think too much ad...i thought u add me is wanna talk with me...n become friend with me again...n i'm very happy...like saw a beautiful future,that full of plants...dunno how to explain...who know the next day,i know that u got lover liao...my feeling drop down from high...very pain...n it juz like put some salt on the bleeding place...very very pain...nobody know that feeling...n somemore that gal is my friend...monday,she talk with me...she ask me:'that day u got go the meetimg?'...n i dunno wat she talking about...wat meeting...i dunno...then i answer:'huh?'...then she ask:'r u st.john member?'then i answer:'no...'she say sorry to me...then i juz smile with her...after that i go away liao...very pity loh...say with that gal who is my lover's lover...but my fruit look like dunno she got bf liao leh...wan tell him or not leh???teach me la...

another one more day...gonna say~goodbye~

another one more day(thursday)...after thursday,our form 2 block start holiday ad...so thursday is our last day in school...although we gonna holidays but we also will miss our school,our teacher,our friends,our lover wan ma...(teacher not so la...hehe)we gonna play until we happy at the day...if not,no need to back home liao la...^^(juz kidding la)...how can we dun wan back home leh...lolz...goodbye my school,goodbye my teachers,goodbye my friends,goodbye my lover(fruit)...goodbye everyone...love u all~~~

our school is like that wan la....

today very boring...form 1 today no school...actually form 5 also wan...but dunno y,some of the form 5 student come(gangsters)...they all come to school捣蛋...very noisy de loh...during last two period,they all "play bom"...very loud loh...n also many people shouted loudly...that moment really very noisy loh...can't imagine wan...n walk here...walk there...can't stop wan wor...somemore wan to go others people class 赌博...haiz...finally caught by siew loh...dunno who tell prefect wan...the prefect come to class by class n call their name...very bad wan...

my result~~~

this year,my result decrease ad...i'm very sad...n also very scare...i'm worry about next year...dunno i will drop class or not...but they all say won't wor...my total mark less hundred more than the first position...very sad...n today,i juz saw my position from teacher izwany there...i get 33 wor...haiz,sure will drop class wan...i get:
BC-66
BM-49
BI-53
MATH-61
SCI-57
SJ-46
GEO-40
KH-43
SIVIK-65
MORAL-23
PS-44

haiz...very bad right...i know la...next year i must +u ad...i can't let my result like that bad...very sad wor...i had promise brenda that...we wanna work hard n get all A inside the PMR exam...if not 5 also can...wish i can dream come true la.....^^~god must bless me wor~

lucky~~~

today,i bring hp to school...i got sms hui ying,ask her to bring hp de...who know she never bring==...but like that also good la...coz today got sport check...if she got bring...sure will keep by perfect wan...today very lucky loh...haha...i go school very earlier ma...sure the prefect not yet come wan ma...^^so no need to keep by them loh...but...finally,i'm the one who bring hp to school in my class...

i promise you...

Brenda,i promise u...i won't 放弃wan...when i say that i love fruit,that moment i had tell myself...i won't simply放弃wan...n i'm not that kind of people...u know me de...i won't do like that...even that wat ever kind of things happen i also won't 放弃wan...i promise u

OMG!!!again?

OMG,y like this wan friday never go school...somemore this week juz 3 days got school only WED n THURS...holidays...coz of SPM n STPM...haiz,but like that also good la...coz my fruit won't go school anymore liao...actually he love NC...so u all dun tell other people ar....^^

CAN'T BREATHE AD!!!

wah...when i heard that kind of new i'm very sad...n wanna find a people to hear my 心事...who know that people scold me wor...sad wat...he started dun believe me liao...because of,i never give him my god sis de number...wah!!!like that also can!my god sis dun wan give other people...but doesn't mean i dun wan give him ma...i wanna give him also cannot la...hate it!!!people ad very pity somemore wan say people like that...now my feeling become very MAD,SAD,n somemore ANNOY!!!

saddddddddddddddddddd~~~~~~

haiz...juz two weeks never saw him only...now...now...now...T.T...juz now i received a new message from kar jing...she say she know fruit now at where...he is at*******,now work as a********...after that i go n tell brenda...brenda keep asking me dun think so much...after an hour...she send me a message she says she comfirm fruit is working at********...n he know fruit love who...when i heard that...my heart...my heart...my heart is bleeding...oh my god...fruit got lover...now,what can i do...juz do like dunno or dun wan love him liao...but i can't do it...anyone help me???i now very very very hurt!!!T.T

haiz...finally i still fail liao...sad!!!

yesterday(friday)...i never go to school...so i dunno that day got wat thing happen...at night,when i'm inside the cinema watching"2012" with my brothers& sister...suddenly,i received a new message(i had status silent,but got vibrate la...^^)...it is brenda...she say...i get 20 in the moral test n 43 in the KH test...it was unbelieveable...i can't believe that...suddenly no mood liao...T.T...i'm very reget that...y i dun wan to do the moral folio...then now fail ad...madam fang say,if moral fail maybe will drop class to G or H class...but i dun wan to suffer like that leh...always bully by them until cry wan...this life i had tried...i dun wan to repeat somemore...n also no need to repeat somemore...T.T...pity!!!

thusday~~~

thursday(12/11/09)...i'm very very very sad...coz that day wan to give back the book...i come earlier in the morning...n wan to check whether my book got less or not...suddenly,my heart break up...my...my...my book less two...oh my god,i become very 紧张 n wanna cry liao...i had found many place ad...but still dun have...that's a moody day...suddenly,i heard someone say...someone got sell book...after a few minutes,they all come class by class...i bought a SV book...left a M2 still can't find...during GEO times,teacher give back the test paper,when i take the paper,i'm very sad because i had fail my test...teacher should my name very loud...n she say i'm the one who fail the test...i juz get 39...i start crying...T.T...Luckily,the teacher say if i got do correstion n pass up on friday...she will give me one more mark...^^

happy day....^^

juz now when i open my ***...u all know wat i saw???haha^^...ya,fruit...he.....he.....he.....he add me leh...i'm very happy...coz start from that time...he never talk with me ...n also never view my profile...suddenly add me...i'm very surprise...haha...look like saw a angel...wah...nice~nobody know my feeling...happy that i dunno how to say...hahaha...later wanna tell brenda liao...i juz can tell brenda only...coz only she will listen to me...n happy together with me...other people won't liao...coz they all feel i very annoy...for them...if i tell them is a terrible plus horrible things^^...so this is a secret...only that who know my blog...then they will know...i also dun wan make trouble to them liao...sorry...i can't tell u all^^that's the things i can't believe...haha...now very happy...tonight can't sleep liao...lolz

hope....:)

haha...that day,i saw a form 3 guy pm something inside his msn...he ask all the form 3 student come to school before a week holiday...i saw that...i'm very happy...but dunno fruit will come ma...hope he will come next week...also hope that i can see him again...long time never see him liao...miss him soooo much...:)

y like this wan???

y all relationship cannot prosperity with their lover 4ever???y they all love together but still wan to argue like that leh...actually u love her wan...n very care about her but y u wan to argue with her???this all is a wrong way...coz u 误会ad...u say she,me n a guy inside class...but do u know that the guy is who...u dun know!!!u never ask her n start angry...but he keep explain with u...although u forgive her ad...but y u look like still angry with her leh???u can hear wat ur friends say...but y u cannot hear her explain leh...u treat her like that do u know she very sad...maybe she dun know how do explain with u...or wat...so she never explain with u ...but i wanna explain for her...that guy is our god brother...do u know!!!u must 珍惜...coz some of the people wanna have a boyfriend...but dun have...n u have a very good girlfriends beside u...actually u r very prosperity ad...

oh my god!!!

wah...juz now i was very boring n counting how many people know who is fruit...wah!!!i dun believe that number...coz it's too big...i can't accept!!!how can like that...i dun believe myself...i keep counting n counting...alright...nothing wrong...is 20...oh my god...i really a stupid...actually 3 person know only de...T.T...now 20 person know ad...really cant accept...juz now another people know liao...haiz,i really very stupid...i can't believe u all anymore...n u all pls dun force me ad...i really can't let fruit know i love him...pls...if u all hate me or wat...i juz dun wan u all let fruit know...n pls this thing dun tell anyone liao...u all no need like that too much de...i know u all hate me...but no need to suffer me like that de...ok?first,i tell YF...after that i tell BS,KLn XH...then dunno y...CW now liao...(maybe XH tell him de bah)...when BS together with K...then i tell K & K...after that we i 认识...KS & WP...i tell them somemore...they all call him 暴龙...then i tell MH...HY...WZ...YW...then when KH & SH know i got a lover call fruit...then they all keep force me to tell them who is fruit...dunno y...AL suddenly guess true...after that i tell GT...then GT tell RP...yesterday,i tell KJ...today i tell JT...==...like that loh...as soon as a rocket...wah...like that 20 people know who is fruit liao...T.T...my fault...if not me u all won't know...1 person is form 1 de...2D got 2 person...2E got 9 person...2G 1 person...form 3 got 2 person...form 4 got 5 person...

@.@

wah...same at that day (27/10/09 ) & also same time...we(brenda & me) saw many people go to the form 3's toilet there(female's toilet)...dunno wat happen wor...then we also go there to "kepo" loh^^...i heard they all say got a person felt down from the female's toilet there from the roof wor...wah,unbelieveable wor...we keep asking they all wat happen...but they all seen like dun wanna tell us...then nvm loh...so i juz kn0w a little bit loh...know his name only...hahaha...after a few minutes...our disiplin teacher come ad...dunno y...he catches many people in the 3H there...many form 2 student hide inside there so all punish by mr.siew...after school,i heard many people keep discussing this thing ( somebody fely down from th roof )...BTW,i saw brenda not comfort...dunno wat can i do...scare...coz she is crying...



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start from friday( 28/10/09 )she never come anymore...i am very worry...i wanna call her but i dun have her contact number...:'(...difficult to contact she...coz of a fool...she cannot use hp anymore...heh!!!hate him...if not him....brenda & me can sms or call each other everyday wan...haiz,life is like that....pity!!!monday(1/11/09 )brenda come to school in the morning...not so earlier la...haha...she gave the geography folio to me...then she take my phone num n go ad...the next day ( 2/11/09 ) she call me at night something around 11 o'clock bah...she tell me she is in at the hospital now...then we talk many things....start from wednesday ( 3/11/09 )...i call she everynight...coz i scare she will boring at hospital..until she went home...haha...when brenda at hospital...i am very boring plus fruit never come plus nobody company me...very pity...wanna cry...:'(

a boring days....

last thursday(27/10/09)...our form got a ceramah...so we need to go our school hall there...to sit for a long time...very boring loh...i almost wan to sleep liao...then i go toilet a while loh...we(xin hui,brenda & me) wanna ponteng wan ...but cannot...coz there are many teacher inside the hall...like a bodygard...then we juz can go toilet loh...if wan ponteng must wait until recess time...coz EN.viva is walking around the school & check whether got our form's student or not...wait for a long time juz recess...when we go out the hall...very happy loh...coz freedom liao...nobody bolder us...hahaha...a few minutes only wor...wan to line up to there again...haiz...brenda & ma dun wanna go inside anymore...so we keep hide at here & there...very dangerous plus hot...coz no fan...somemore brenda have high fever...she is very tire ad...

maybe is me very stupid bah...

haha...maybe is me very stupid bah...coz they all ask me when exam is running...n i tell them...actually i can dun wan tell them de...me really like that stupid ma?i ask they all...they all seen like dun wanna tell me...then nvm loh...i dun wan ask them loh...like that ok ma?but who know they all ask me again...i dun wan cheat wan leh...like that...if can change to a better class...also useless la...cause it is not yours wan...not u get with urself de...i really dun wan to suffer like that ad...u all can cheat but dun ask me...ok?n i also won't ask u all wan...i will do it for myself...n show u all...not cheat juz can change class de...n if u wan to change class must become hard a bit...if u not do it urself...next time u change class ad...u also will drop class again...==...better do it of urself...

happy~~~

yeah...both of the important subject in exam had past...monday not important wan...Pendidikan Sivik,Pendidikan Kesihatan & Pendidikan Seni...haha!!!already tire for 5 days liao...now juz can relax...think & dream about fruit...happy...but now juz worry about next year dunno will drop class or not...monday i better go to F class n ask they all next year dun bully me...T.T...but dunno they all will listen to me ma...haiz...life is like that wan loh...sometimes sweet,sometimes sour,n sometimes better...very pity...haha...dun think so much liao la...next year de things...next year juz think la...船到桥头自然直...haha...juz can think like that loh^^...

REALLY HATE!!!

yer...geli!!! i hate ur hair...i hate ur eye...i hate ur nose...i hate ur mouth...i hate ur face...i hate everything yours...the most i hate is ur sound...very very geli u know?juz make people annoy...make people no mood...make people dun wanna eat liao...er........everythings about u...very geli!today,i ask u to change place with me...u dun wan...then y u ask me to change with u i must change leh...u dun think i short than u...u can bully me...heh!!!i tell fruit later u juz know...really hate u so much...dun walk together with me...i dun have a friends like u( fake!!! )many boys like that kind of sound ma...then u go in front them to do la...geli!!!u dun wan change place with me,dun change la...nvm de ma...somemore wan to say my bad things behind me with many people...nobody will do like that...juz only u...i change place is because i wan to sit with brenda...u?u wan cheating leh...how can like that de...u think u cheat u can change to a better class meh...if can then also not use la...because u cheating ma...this wan maybe prinsipal,maybe teacher dunno...but the god can see ma...later u will get from it wan...if u dun believe...u can wait wan...wait for god's punish...

yeah.....

yeah...after monday i become a bird flying in the sky with its friends liao...haha...coz exam wan finish ad...happy...but tmr is KH & SEJARAH...two of them very important wan wor...how?i dun wan drop class leh...i dun wan let them bully me again...i still remember last year...they all bully me until cry wor...very pity...n that time i really wanna change school if not i kill myself...two ways can choose...that's y last year very pressure...n wan to change class!!!then i study hard n paying attention when teacher is teaching(that's y they all keep say,when i form 1 very GUAI n SHA...haha^^...finally i change class liao...if now wan me to drop back to that class...i dun wan ad!!!

HEH!!!

i hate you...u know?actually i dun wan hate u de...but i can't do it...ur pattern make me hate u soooooo much...always HAI people scold by teacher...somemore wan to ask...y u so scare?heh!!!u dun scare meh?if u dun scare...then y last time u wan to cry?dun scare dun cry la...i know la...if something happen u juz push that things to other people...u always like that wan ma!!!!!not any responsibility...hate u so much...dun so near to me...very geli u know?juz go far away from me...people dun wan bolder u anymore...always obsess people...make people annoy

coming soon!!!

haiz...final exam is coming soon liao...everytime like that de loh...cannot give people a while minutes to breathe...when people feel very relax liao then that things come to disturb me again...n the point is y final exam must study all the book...n also form 1 de???hate leh...especially is sejarah,sivik n moral...maybe i will fail one or two of them...because i hate BM...haha...dun ask me y...coz i also dunno...at primary school,sometimes i will fail my bm...but now maybe i will fail sejarah,sivik&moral...one or two of them...if u know dun tell others...coz i know u all think that sivik & mora is very easy...but i really dun understand wat it's meaning about...when i saw many BM work...my head started pain...how???another 2 days wan exam liao...i must started to do revision...i dun wanna drow class...my result ad very bad...somemore wan change class...i won't give u all dissapointed de...+U+U+U+U^^

T.T

haiz...dunno who else wan to betray me liao loh...i had ad say...dun tell anyone...dun tell anyone...repeat & repeat again...ad repeat many time...but they all still wan to tell other that things...haiz...dunno when i will going to change school liao leh...dunno fruit will know ma...hate u all de lah...next time i won't fing u all & talk with u all liao...heh!!!who did wan that person ownself know...god won't give u that best things wan...u will get from god...pls dun hurt me...i juz a normal gal...

dangerous!!!

yesterday...we pass by batang 3(dunno true or not,my sis say there is batang 3^^)...my 1st sis is talking with my 2nd sis...suddenly,my bro shouted loudly...then my sis ask him...y?he say he saw a house is on fire...then we quickly u turn back loh...omg!!!is true...then we quickly call the owner's neighbours...then many people come over there liao...i heard they all say the ower had move liao...then they all try to put out the fire...wah,very dangerous loh...who know when it will explode de...haha...finally the fire had been put out...then we juz go back...^^haha...today we had done a good things

dun wanna do it^^

haha...today never go school again...haiz...i dun wan to become like that leh...everytime ponteng...ponteng...like that i also hate myself wor...actually i got go de...who know my sis suddenly said can dun go wor...i heard that...very happy wor^^...but then brenda n fruit also never go...i go also not use la...dunno wat can do...juz dream a whole day...n always not happy...but this two day(wednesday n thursday) ok la...they all got company me...i also happy la...juz cannot see brenda n fruit only...start from last friday i never saw brenda liao...she at hospital...causes the denggi loh...haiz...then start from this monday i never saw fruit liao...dunno today he got go to school or not...still not yet sms my friends...coz i scare leh...i scare they all feel annoy leh...i also dunno y...they all hate to listen about fruit things...so i wan find a people also very difficult wor...nvm la...^^monday can saw him very lucky liao...^^

now very dangerous liao...as dangerous as a kid cross through a busy road without their parents!!!

haiz...now i always care about that things...i know many people know about this things liao...but they all dun wan to tell me only...someone know about this things...oh my god...u know y i know that people know liao???coz...that people is pointing that things...ya!!!that things...haiyo...dunno who else wan to"bei pan" me liao...i really very regret liao...i let u all know is because i believe u all...doesn't mean u can tell others people...one people maybe nvm lah...but u tell de people is a'big mouth'wor...somemore cannot keep secret de...that kind of people is more dangerous...cause i really very scare...when the people tell that people (character)...i will die liao...god bless me...pls...love u god...i never wanna somethings...juz wan u to bless people who surrounding me(my friendsss, fruit) n also me...is it too much???

miss brenda...

today...i had think very careful liao...tmr dun wanna go to school...coz i feel that brenda never come i also very boring...brenda had already 2 days never come liao last friday n this monday...n inside this two days i had saw many things happen n understand something liao...so i dun wanna go to school tmr...actually...i am waiting for brenda miss call...coz i dunno wat's her phone number...wan call her also cannot...wan ask her whether tmr she got go to school or not...today rong pey,kar jing & me keep discussing this question...then rong pey say she won't come liao...coz wei ling & geok theng they all never go...kar jing say if brenda never go then i never go she also dun wan go liao...but i really dun wan go to school tmr...juz now i got sms they all...but kar jing never reply me...n rong pey they all comfirm they all dun wan go liao...then i quickly ask someone if tmr fruit got go to school must tell me...n take care of my fruit...one more things is...i ask him...if he got saw brenda tmr...must tell brenda do her sivik folio as soon as possible...coz teacher said those who not yet pass up...she will give their name to mr.siew...ask her do first...the pic at here...later will dive her...n also the moral folio(haha...we many folio to do leh...haiz...our life is like that de la...no choice)n her homework i will give her when i come back(wednesday)...haiz...dunno brenda tmr will come ma?dunno tmr fruit will come ma?dunno he will forget to help me that i wanna to do but no time to do de things ma...worry about that...hope brenda will healthier than before la...miss her so much liao...love u love u love u...actually...brenda very cute...when she is still a small kid...who wanna to see the pic...can ask for me...but i not sure i will show u or not...^^...really very cute...when u saw it...u will smile the whole day...when u r sad or angry...try to things the pic then u won't feel like that liao...^^

a happy day~~~~

today...brenda come in the morning n pass something to me...i thought she will come today...who know...haiz...her mother bring her to school n take my number...after that...they all go back liao...sad...today very boring liao loh...today i also never wait for fruit...coz today when i reached school it is very late liao...after that become very busy liao...luckily,still got place to sit^^...today dunno y ur kh teacher change her period with our form teacher...then that mean we have one sivik two ICT...(the same teacher)together 3 period...after got no period liao coz pn.lai said she wan to mark pmr exam question...so today our class 2p.m. can go back ad...during the sivik period...i ask hui ying company me to go toilet...who know when i go out i ad saw fruit...he is looking at me...(dun believe that!!!)i become very happy liao...i tell that all who know who is fruit de...:'fruit got come'...they all ask me 'really?'haha nobody believe that...i also dun believe that fruit will come...saw him doing his hobby....^^when 2 p.m. ad...we also go out the gate liao...i waiting with my friends xin hui...i thought fruit go back liao...coz i heard vegetables said his car came ad...then i find him very long time still never saw his shadow...then i talk with xin hui loh...n a car park in front of me...suddenly i saw fruit inside the car de reflection...he is beside me only...when i saw that i also terperanjat wor...^^he is playing his hair...i wanna see him very long time...but i scare he saw that...after a few minutes...i see the car again...but he is gone...nvm la...today can saw him very surprise liao...love him very much

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dunno who say won't tell others people i got blog de loh...finally...who know someone write my address inside her blog...ya i'm talking about u....==...(talking about brenda...haha^^ )haiz...actually i juz wan to tell 4 peoples about this(i got blog)dunno y suddenly kelly know liao...i keep ask her y she know...but she still dun wan to tell me...i wanna know leh...kelly...how u know de?

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care about one things

haiz...see!!!i had ad said dun wanna tell others people who is fruit...coz i very scare that fruit know i love him...but dunno y they all keep force me...now many people know ad...i'm very regret...i hope that the god will bless me...dun give fruit know i love him...if fruit know,i dun wanna live liao...better die...maybe u all dun understand y i scare like this...now dunno how to explain with u all...but if u all got love de people n the people dun love u all...maybe this kind of people will know bah...^^start from now i won't tell anybody who is fruit liao...i swear!!! so u all dun ask me or force me anymore...coz until die i also won't tell u all de^^

tired

everybody dunno what i'm thinking about...sometimes i juz wan to talk somethings that i wanna talk...then someone started complain me...say i always talk about fruit...fruit...fruit...say it is very annoy...but then who else that i can talk to...i also dunno...sometimes i juz keep inside my heart...but now i'm very tired ad...very very tired...n nobody know that...sometimes they all ask me to 'fang qi' fruit...i wanna to do like that...but...i can't do it...i also dunno y...that's y i create a blog...coz nobody wan to listen to me...coz i had ad very tired...but still nobody wan to save me...haiz...when i write something that i hide inside my heart very long time...now i juz feel very happy...^^

a bored n a sad day......

haiz...sometimes i feel very 'ke lian' to myself...other people can walk together with their lover...can saw each other everyday...but me...me...me juz can hide at a side n saw him...but now it is become a habit...yesterday(friday)...fruit n brenda never come...i become very boring...dunno y...that day i seen like unlucky...maybe i think so much ad bah...that day,when geography period...i saw teacher bring a long rottan...i'm very worry...oh i think is caused the folio bah...i not yet pass up...then teacher rottan me...that moment dunno y my tears suddenly drops down...T.T...then i start crying...very sad...then xin hui come n sit beside me...after that...i become more sad...think that if i today never come to school maybe this all thing won't happen...n i won't cry bah...

=.='

actually this is the new account...juz now i got create one...but i had forgot the address & the password...so everything is gone...sad...i had waste many times in this blogs...suddenly all gone...juz think me very useless n hopeless...^^the simple things like that also can forget...no wonder my engish teacher,pn.lai...always say us is old grangfather n old grandmother la...haha...i think so...lol...dunno this time will forgot or not...if i forgot...i better die liao...=.='haha...hope this blogs not so many people view la...actually i dun wan create blog wan...coz i scare many of u know wat i had thinking...^^this question henry got ask me ad...n he also know y i dun wan create blog...so if u know i have blog ...pls keep this as a secret...keep this inside ur heart 4ever...i will thank for u until the end of the future...^^so this thing not so many people know....pls help me!!!thx for u all ...thx^^

hate our school teacher !!!

hate our school teacher very much!!!always bully student wan...watever wat subject de teacher all like that too...always call student to respect them...but they all leh...they all never ever respect us...although we juz a student...but also a human ma...also need people to respect wan ma...juz do watever they like...hate this kind of teacher...today,our seni teacher use the water colour to draw us wor...he ask somemore:'y u all play the colour'...wah,that moment i become more angry...wanna change school but dunno can or not...study at here make people feel stress only...always take the record book to black mail people...u all better dun study at SMK GB...remember!!!if u dun believe u can try...but after that dun regret...^^

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TODAY WAITING FRUIT

this morning, i wait for fruit very long time...but he still never come...our class always come late de student also come ad...but still never saw fruit...then we(brenda & me)also go to line up liao...today never saw him...actually very sad wan...but i am very lucky...coz my friends keep talking something very funny to make me smile...if not i think maybe the whole day i won't smile bah...^^i'm here to say thx for my friends...brenda & yoong wu...love u all...^^